Updated: Jun 27, 2022
Hi, my name is Toni, and I'm a transsexual. It's not the biggest part of my life. But it is a part of who I am. I'm now 57 years old and am working on my diploma in psychology.
I think I was about 21 when I first saw a doctor – my general practitioner (GP) about becoming a transsexual. This was in the 80s.
In those days, seeing a medical doctor was the exception rather than the rule, about gender dysphoria. What I experienced wasn't very nice at all. My doctor began asking very personal questions! Very personal. Very probing. I won't go into the details of his questions . But I ran for the hills!
A couple of years later, I had a new doctor, and she was wonderful. She herself said that I was “trans” (no one had used the term "gender dysphoria" yet). She was a wonderful physician, but unfortunately she moved out of the area (and became a consultant for women with breast problems).
So, I was in limbo for a couple of years. I was buying hormone pills on the black market, which is not a good idea at all. Little did I know that I should have had liver and kidney function tests every few months! The person I was buying the pills from told me that when I moved to another area, I could tell my new GP that I was on hormones, and I would get them prescribed......
Explaining Black Market Hormones & How Children Are Allowed To Order Them - Toni's Story Continues Below.
In The US Last Week, President Biden Approved Children At the Age Of 14 To Start Cross-Sex Hormones', Full Mastectomies' & Now? Now? Bottom Surgeries, You Know The Phone That Has A 67% Complication Rate That Has Given Death Sentences To Many Because Of Re0ccuring Infection. - Approved Trans Kids Can Start Younger - Link
Link Oct 6, 2020 — Puberty blockers and sex hormones can be dispatched via a “quick, discreet delivery” once they pay for prescriptions from a private clinic ...
THIS IS A SITE SHOWING HOW TO GET HORMONES ON THE BLACK MARKET:
How To Order Hormones Online: Some people in our community choose to take hormones they buy online. Some people get them online without going to a doctor to save money <---Not To Save Money FYI (For Kids you don't even have to be an adult - Scott Newgent
to save time
to keep it out of their medical record
to keep others from knowing
......This was before the internet, and my medical records were sent to the new surgery via courier! I know! How archaic! It took upwards of six weeks for the records to arrive at the new surgery. And in the meantime the new GP would have started new medical records for me!
Anyway, after a few months of buying hormones from a friend, I met my first ever boyfriend! I was 26! He said he didn't want to date me if I carried on with the hormones. So I stopped.
We were together for four years. I was single for two years until I met my next boyfriend. That was very abusive. . .Drugs and alcohol were involved. We stayed together off and on for four years.
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Then I met my last boyfriend. We were together for ten years. We got married and split up three years later.
At this time I was having serious mental health issues all the time.
Through all this I had three mental breakdowns. The last one really scared me.
After my last relationship, I decided to finally see my GP about my dysphoria.
I had to have numerous rounds of therapy before I was put on estrogen patches. But they stopped working after a few months. And that wasn't a good thing, I can tell you! It took the clinic another six months to decide that, yes, I was telling the truth when I told them the patches had stopped working! They finally sorted all that out, and I had no more issues with hormones.
Then on 4th February 2013, I traveled by train very early in the morning from the southwest coast to the southeast coast of England. I was on my way to the hospital to get my gender reassignment surgery. The next morning I went down to the surgery suite to have my surgery. No nerves. No tears. No emotion at all.
Had my surgery and went home a week later. I won't go into detail about the surgery itself.
Nine years later I'm still kicking! I'm finally living my life. I'm happily single and share my life with two wolfdogs. They are my joy.
I'm sharing this with you to tell you that even as an adult I changed my mind about transitioning. But I finally got there. Would I have done it sooner? No, I don't think I would. Because I know myself. And I am happy with how I did it.
I don't think I would have been as happy had I done it earlier or younger. But this is me.
This is why I'm against transing children. Because it is a life-changing decision..
Children cannot deal with or fully comprehend events in the future. They're limited to thinking no further than tomorrow or next week. They cannot plan things way into the future.
We all know children use emotion when they want something. And mostly, when they do get what they wanted, they're no longer interested! This is how children are.
So, should we allow children to choose to change their bodies via chemicals and surgery because they don't feel comfortable in their own bodies? Don't you think therapy should be the main priority here? To find out why they're feeling the way they do?
Just because I'm happy with the choice I made regarding surgery to deal with my gender dysphoria doesn't mean it's the right thing for everyone. There's no cure for gender dysphoria. For me, surgery was the end result of dealing with it. It's not an end goal. It's a last resort.
This is not an experience I would wish on my worst enemy. It's not fun. It's not all white picket fence and skipping through the long grass. It's painful, both emotionally and physically. It takes its toll on you.
So, please stop transing children. They might be LGB. And that's okay. Let them explore who they really are. If need be, through therapy. But stop transing children.
Thank you xx,
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